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the grace of others (spiral, viral, meme)

sam — Sat, 02 Feb 2008 09:16:07 +0000

(meme, picked up while roaming tribe)

& how else to withstand the enormity of such burden,
the burden of sight, but to believe
that there can only be the grace of others?

Danetta & Belen made me smile this week.
so here you go:
reply to this blog & i’ll tell you
why you make my world a better place to live.

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Happy Birthday, Kelly!

sam — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 18:41:46 +0000

you classy punk, you.
i love you, sweetheart.

thank you for making my world a better place.

Pawprints on my car

sam — Sat, 09 Jun 2007 20:20:46 +0000

they belong to Tiny.

So sue me

sam — Fri, 08 Jun 2007 22:37:20 +0000

go ahead, sue me:

I have ur bit meet me for lunch or else

sam — Fri, 08 Jun 2007 00:56:51 +0000

Little Bit catnapped by the satin-gloved iron fist.

She says

sam — Tue, 05 Jun 2007 18:24:15 +0000

i missed you, mama.

Fire Mountain was amazing

sam — Wed, 30 May 2007 18:27:09 +0000

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i needed that more than i realized.

See Kelly’s pictures.

You

sam — Tue, 29 May 2007 20:21:26 +0000

thank you for driving the whole way up & the whole way down. for letting me sleep, even when i don’t want you to. for keeping me newcastled & watered. for holding me, loving me, making love to me. for sharing your spoken and unspoken words. for cracking me open one gesture at the time. you’re incredible.

So i grabbed a tube of toothpaste

sam — Sat, 26 May 2007 02:13:09 +0000

Little Bit lends me a hand while i brush my teeth before bed last night. i love my new phone & its camera…

Sent by mobile @ Ember

sam — Wed, 09 May 2007 16:11:27 +0000

Happy Today

Kelly

sam — Sun, 29 Apr 2007 07:50:04 +0000

let it be known, that i recently purchased a cellphone. i hate the phone. despise it. yes, it’s true. so what on earth would push a stubborn soul like myself to acquiesce? Kelly rules her world with a satin-gloved iron fist: You’ll live by her rules & you’ll like it. No really, it won’t hurt at all. See: you’re smiling already.

new phone + camera = awesome

sam — Thu, 26 Apr 2007 01:29:40 +0000

unsuspecting Little Bit dives nose-first into my the camera lens ;-)

Message to Kit

sam — Fri, 02 Mar 2007 08:50:10 +0000

i emailed my mom before i got on the plane on saturday. she wrote me back & asked me how you are. she says hello, too :-) i know why we fell in love, Kit. our psychic connection spans beyond the years we we together, we’ve both always known this. the past few days, i’ve been overwhelmed by this feeling of gratitude. to be able to see you again. to look you in the eye & be taken backwards or forwards into that infinite space that exists beyond these boundaries of linear time and physical space. i’ve been on the verge of tears for days, simply because i didn’t think we’d be able to share that connection in the the present again. when we were at Dante’s there was that first moment when i recognized that look in your eyes. it’s such an intense look, with such an unstoppable energy implied: i know that at that very moment i am seeing you completely for who you are. i don’t think you really know how much you have impacted my life, Kit. and i am sorry i was unable to give you the recognition you wanted from me. the way in which i live my life today, the music i play, the manner in which i think about the sound–essentially the way in which i have been expressing my emotions for the past 8 years–they very much are a reflection of how you’ve impacted my life. i am humbled by your gift. that you are still here today. i love you, Kit. sam

I feel a little less jaded today, and a little less scarred.

sam — Wed, 28 Feb 2007 04:45:14 +0000

wow, Kit. i’m glad to be able to say: Hi. yes, there you are. without a doubt. time is a healer. if there was ever proof, it was seeing you again this weekend. & by that i mean *seeing* you again. never would i have dared to dream that life might some day come around and offer itself back: recovered, revived, forgiving. i feel a little less jaded today, Kit. and a little less scarred. my thoughts enfold you. sam

lieve samira,

sam — Sun, 14 Jan 2007 06:49:57 +0000

ik ben heel blij voor je dat je voor jezelf hebt gekozen. het leven gaat snel genoeg en soms moet je beslissingen maken die veel pijn en verdriet doen, maar toch het beste voor jezelf zijn. de afgelopen 6 jaar ben ik er ook achtergekomen, dat ik vrede moet maken met mijn verleden. mijn gebit is het laatste opstakel wat mij nog aan die nare tijd herinnnert. ik heb de afgelopen jaren heel wat blokkades verwerkt, vandaar dat ik ook zo vaak ziek ben geweest met ook die bijna dood ervaring in 2002 toen ik in shock was. het is een les geweest en ik heb er veel van geleerd. soms ga je door heel veel pijn en verdriet om in te zien dat jij alleen degene bent die er verandering in kan aanbrengen. ik heb er vrede mee en zie jouw vader als een boek die ik heb uitgelezen. ik zou jou nooit gekend hebben als ik hem niet had ontmoet. je hebt veel liefde en kleur in mijn leven gebracht en dat heeft veel goed gemaakt in die relatie met louis. ik zal blij zijn je weer te zien. het maakt mij erg gelukkig te horen dat het goed gaat met jou en je hebt het verdient! laat niemand je dat afnemen samira! ik ben erg trots op je dat je het toch allemaal doet, zover van je familie. je weet dat je altijd naar huis kunt komen, de deur staat voor je open! liefs, mama Dearest Samira, I am so happy that you have chosen for you. Life goes by so fast and, at times, you are forced to make decisions that cause a lot of pain and sadness, but which are ultimately best for you. Over the past 6 years I have come to realize that I have to make peace with my past. My teeth were the final obstacle that still reminded me of my ugly past. I had to work through quite a number of blockages over the past few years, which is the reason why I was sick so often and why I had that near-death experience in 2002 from being in shock. It was a lesson and I have learned from it. Sometimes you must experience an incredible amount of pain and anguish, in order to see that only you can bring about the necessary changes. I have come to peace with my past and see your father as a book that I have now finished reading. I would have never known you, if I hadn’t encountered him. You have brought much love and color into my life which is much good that has come out of that relationship with Louis. I will be happy to see you again. It makes me very happy to hear that you are doing well again, and you deserve it! Don’t ever let anybody take that away from you, Samira! I am so proud of you for all that you accomplish, especially for being so far away from your family. You know that you can always come home; the door is open! Love, Mama

Sounds i love

sam — Fri, 28 Oct 2005 23:43:59 +0000

the sound of my mother tongue. the sounds of trees. galloping horses. the sound of percolating coffee, the sound of carbinated water. the sound of a well-maintained motorcycle, and sounds that ratchets make. or the way in which only david bowie can pronounce: “jasmine” every sound that keith jarrett has ever spilt into this world. the turning of pages in old hardbound books. the lack of sound, the spaces in between as these to me constitute the essence of breakbeat, of poetry, of philosophy… and, at times, i also like the sound of my memory