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Kelly’s Birthday Wish

sam — Sun, 29 Mar 2009 23:39:07 +0000

Please support my fundraising efforts for the Pancreatic Cancer Action Network

Kelly lost her father to pancreatic cancer 2 weeks ago. He had been diagnosed only 4 months ago. Think about that for a moment: 4 months. 4 months is a flash. Many of us have been unemployed for longer periods than that, have traveled for longer periods than that. Think about a semester in college. We’re talking a very short period of time.

I can’t even imagine what Kelly, Brad and Emily have gone through these past months, having to say goodbye to their dad in such a short amount of time. I’ll be joining Kelly on her birthday for a fundraiser walk, in memory of her father: Mike Blanchard.
Please stop by my fundraiser page & join us if you want to, donate if you can.

Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Much love

sam

just a note

sam — Sun, 21 Jan 2007 15:26:22 +0000

2 friends. each lost a parent yesterday. unbelievably shocking. life is so very short. in the end, we’ll all be riding the same bicycle i suppose. i just emailed Lucho to tell him how much i love him. i also just thought of how i would go through periods when i was afraid of dying, and how you would hold me & comfort me & tell me that you hoped that when the day would come, that i would die before you, so you could be by my side & i would not have to feel afraid or alone. 2 nights ago, i found my headphone box that is filled with 5 years worth of your notes & letters. i read them and almost smiled & almost cried. i almost wanted to throw them away. life is short, indeed. and, right now, i just want to say, if i were in those last moments, i’m certain you’d be one of the final flashes i’d take with me before the lights turned from dim to black.

Death is not a natural event

sam — Fri, 24 Nov 2006 02:49:48 +0000

It is caused only by magic or violence… (Stephen Wright, Going Native) today it is Thanksgiving. a rather strange holiday for us foreigners. it’s a day off. it’s a day of forced rest, since even fast food chains seem to be closed. but, here in Oakland, the violence doesn’t halt even on Thanksgiving. i knew something was up this afternoon, as the sound of more than one helicopter started to encircle my neighborhood. the close proximity of the choppers that wouldn’t go away, i already sensed a disturbance in the quiet that is supposed to be Thanksgiving. something had gone seriously wrong–after my 10 year tenure here in Oakland, i knew that much: something did not go right for someone. things go wrong, here in Oakland, every day. and by wrong i mean, people die here. people die by violence. sure enough, upon leaving the grocery store parking lot, we learned from the local news station that was reporting from there while some 5 helicopters were still circling overhead, that Oakland delivered us a triple homicide today. a mere couple of blocks from my house, at least 3 people lost their lives only a few hours ago & i am devastated. the news story shows my neighborhood blocked off, over a dozen cop cars, and a SWAT team encroaching upon the nearby apartment complex. the news offers its afterthought, as if it were an insightful warning: best to avoid this area right now. cbs5.com – 3 Dead After Shooting At Oakland Apartment Complex

Goodbye, Friend

sam — Sat, 01 Mar 2003 05:13:27 +0000

I just uploaded a new mix, which is in the memory of a very dear friend of mine. Josh sometimes disappeared for a few months, but he always came back. A few months ago, I had that gnawing feeling that something was wrong, because he had been gone for much too long. On February 21 I learned that Josh passed away one month after his 30th birthday. He died of asthma. Sometimes I hear a car drive by, and I’m convinced it’s him. Sometimes I try to understand that I will never see Josh again. Goodbye, Friend. Thank you for our friendship of seven years. You are sorely missed.